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Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Poetry Throwback

Finally a new post! well... kind of. Life has been crazy and I have been going through a rough patch. I didn't want to take the risk of writing a post that was me whining or complaining because that's not what this blog is about. Also I was just feeling a lack of inspiration, but I'm back with thoughts in my head that are ready to be written. I have perspective on this past rough patch so I can write about now from a place of reflection and analysis. So stay tuned for those posts coming soon!

I didn't want to leave you hanging though with just an update and I did promise some of my poetry so here it is! A couple of my favorite poems that I wrote in college. I have them complied into a collection that I hope someday I can publish. It never hurts to dream! So check them out and leave any comments and thoughts below. If you really like what you read then share my blog please!!


Puzzle Piece

did you ever wonder where you fit in?
How your puzzle piece fits into the whole?
Sometimes I feel like my puzzle piece
has fallen off the table.
The missing piece that no one
has even realized is missing yet.
It lays on the floor right
under the table,
as others work hard with all
the other pieces fitting them
into their place.
They work with the pieces that matter,
the pieces that make up the edge
of the image.
While my piece is one of those
annoying middle pieces
that isn't touched till the very end.
It doesn't make up the image.
It's one of those filler pieces,
a solid blah color
like black or blue
part of the sky or night.
A piece that just blends in
no different from the other sky pieces.
It's one of those pieces that
is easily mistaken for another,
which is why it remains
forgotten on the floor.
The last piece to be remembered.
The last piece to find its place.

Avoiding Daylight

She awakes to the feel of the cold
against her warm exposed skin
sending shivers down her spine.
She turns away from the threatening day
retreating to the inside of the bed
where light can not yet reach her.

She knows its almost time to rise
hearing her alarm clock tick away
her last few minutes to lie in bed.
She shouldn't waste her time like this
but she can't force herself to move just yet.

She hates this part of the day where
she must force herself to awake
and begin the monotony that has
become her life. Each day becomes
a little bit harder to climb out of bed
a little bit harder to not just lie there
just for a few more minutes.

As she hides from the sun, which slowly
becomes stronger with each passing minute,
she wonders what the point is...what is she
doing with her life? Each day she wakes
and follows the same routine the same schedule.
All excitement that might have been had vanished
consumed by responsibility and chores.

The only time her life promised any new
or exciting change was at night when
she could retreat inside the world of her dreams.
Her dreams were the only place where she could
let go,live out what she really wish could happen.
Morning ruined all of that, forcing her back to reality.

Morning was the enemy of her dreams.
Forcing her away from where she was happy
back to a place where she had nothing to live for
but what others wanted her to do. Her alarm clock
sounds its fifth attempt to drag her out of bed but
she ignores the call hitting the snooze button
for just ten more minutes of the dark.

The sun now covers her bed reaching its
full peak and she knows she can no
longer hide from its beckoning call.
She knows she must begin her day.
realizing that there is no point
she can't put off her day any longer.

Her alarm clock sounds for the sixth
time and she begins to rise. Slowly
trudging out of bed to face the same
old routine that is her everyday life.

The Walk
Thump thump thump. Listen to the heartbeat. Ringing constantly in your ear. Squish squish squish. The shoes hit the pavement. Rain splashes on the back of well worn jeans. Ripped and torn. Frayed and jagged. Pieces missing where jean should be. These pants have seen many walks. Many steps taken. Over and over the same miles. Again and again. Each step,Each heartbeat. Thump squish thumb squish. It's a lonely walk. More time to think all by yourself. Cars pass by. Cars speed through red lights. Brakes squeal as drivers abruptly stop. Zigzagging, rushing to nowhere. Splashing the water from the curb on whoever is near the sidewalk. She doesn't mind a little water. The bottom of her jeans are soaking wet. Why not the rest of her? Yes please soak her head to toe. Cover her in dirty curb water. Filled with leaves and cigarette buds. Whatever trash someone decided to throw out a car window. She loves the feeling of wet cloth against her skin. Clinging to each nook and cranny of her body. Showing every flaw, every roll of fat she may have. Jeans soaked rub against each other, on the inside of her thighs. Rub them raw. Stain them blue. She doesn't mind. What's a little pain? It'll be gone by tomorrow. Start the walk all over again. Lose a little more jean. Soon they won't be pants. They'll be floods. Up by her ankles. The part that made them pants long gone. So ragged and frayed, they fell away. She doesn't mind. These are her jeans. They are good for now. Dirty and torn but still. Long enough to cover her shoes. In the front anyway. She doesn't care about the back. If she doesn't see it what does it matter? What she only sees. It's what matters. Pay no attention to the cars passing by. The cars that don't stop. Won't stop. If they don't see it doesn't matter. Right? Thud collapse. Tires squeal as they abruptly. STOP.


And as an added bonus here is a picture or 2 of what I looked like at the time this poetry was written in 2010




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